oh yeah? wherein I stoop

Slurpee...

Normally I would just delete this entry in my guestbook, because anyone that doesn't have the guts to use their diaryland name while insulting me OR fill in their e-mail address*, so that I can respond, doesn't really deserve the space in my guestbook. It's a cowardly hit-and-run flame. Especially when you are quite obviously either the person I was venting about OR a close friend of the person I was venting about, come to defend his/her honor.

Transparent much? Yeah.

But. I just wanted to say ---
"immature" is spelled with 2, count them, two "m"s.
And it's "judgmental", not "judgemental".

I never said my whole weekend was ruined. Never even hinted it. Just because I devote one entry to getting the anger and annoyance out of my system (and I have been too busy to update with a proper account of my weekend, because I have a busy life right now) does not mean that my whole weekend was ruined. Nowhere did I say, convey, or even imply that. You read what you want to read into it, but that doesn't make it my responsibility that that's what you infer.

Just because I hang out at the same online place as someone, and we have exchanged, oh, one e-mail, and talked on the phone twice, well, that doesn't make her/him my FRIEND. She was a seemingly cool person that I met at a message board. She wasn't really someone that I considered a friend, because I didn't really even know her. She was just a girl that I "knew" online. Lose the hyperbole.

You also don't know how or how much I told my friends, unless you were there. You don't know how catty we were or were not, and how fun it was or wasn't.

I certainly did NOT post it at the message board. Nor did everyone from the message board flock over here to read it. It doesn't work that way. So lose that delusion, cupcake. Trust me, I check my stats regularly, and I would have noticed an influx of 10,000 people. Or even a slight increase from my norm, and frankly, that wasn't the case. Some people might compose their entries thinking only of what other people might think, or how it's going to "look" to the outside world. I am not that person. I use this as a *gasp* diary. I say what I am thinking and feeling, because that's it's purpose, for me. If someone reads it and doesn't like it, well, I offer no apologies. Unless completely out of line, and I certainly don't feel that I have been in this case. I'm honest about my feelings, and I see no reason why I should write in MY DIARY with my thoughts geared toward what other people might think. That's just... counter-productive and pointless. If you really think that I post in my diary for the sole purpose of having people from the message board (which I have, essentially, quit posting at because I am so busy) come and read it... you're screwy. That's the most absurd thing I've heard in a while. Because that just doesn't happen. Believe me, sweetums, if I wanted to post about it at the message board, I would do just that. Post about it. Since you seem to be somewhat familiar with the site, you might know that I don't bother with holding my tongue over there when I feel the need to speak up. If I was so inclined to post about it there, then rest assured, I would have. Your theory that this is some back-door, passive-aggressive way of making everyone over there find out about it... give me a break. I don't work that way, and it speaks volumes about your mindset that you even think that.

And you know what? Unless you were present, you don't know how imMature I was or was not. So, let's not point fingers at me for being judgmental when you are passing judgment on a situation of which you weren't even a part.

Frankly, when I invite someone into my home and they use me, crap all over me, insult me and my friends... well, honey, all bets of tactful behavior are OFF. And, nevertheless, I WAS tactful, right until the end, as well as polite, friendly, generous, and inviting. If purging about it in MY DIARY is imMature, then I guess I am that.

But I simply think that you should re-evaluate your definitions and own behavior.

And next time, be adult enough to leave your e-mail address, so that I don't have to respond to you in an entry. It doesn't lend much credence to your slam when you are too cowardly to open yourself up for a rebuttal.

*This does not apply to people like Katrina, who stop by with no contact information to comment or encourage. This is obviously not an act of cowardice, and I so adore her, even though I have no way of telling her that. *sniff* Katrina, you rock the casbah. Thanks for your kindness.